I have arrived to Bali and it’s been a tough start. My departure from Berlin was all but joyful. I don’t think I have never felt that lonely before. And it hit me hard. The flight was really hard. In Doha, my stopover, the flight at the gate next to Denpasar, Indonesia was Stockholm, Sweden. And I just felt so strongly that I wanted to get on that flight instead. To go home. To Sweden. What am I doing trying to find happiness someplace else? But I didn’t of course (and it probably wasn’t even possible). So now I’m here. In Bali. And I have to believe things will change for the better. And they will, this I have learned by now.
I really don’t know how much I’ll post from Bali but today I write about my third day here. I attended my first yoga class since I arrived and revisited the Yoga Barn, a place I have many memories from. I’m still not really feeling that good. My stomach is also upset, unfortunately that is more my “normal” state. And yes, still very tired.
I have finally checked out from my hotel and had the best lunch in a long time here in Ubud. It makes me feel better. I think this feeling of loneliness will pass. A change is going to come, so much is moving inside of me. And I got reminded of how much I love to dance.
An update from Gili Air. It’s like paradise here. Very hot and humid though. I’ve been through a lot since I last wrote. It’s all been for the better, very much for the better. And I’ve said goodbye to my vegan diet. That was really very unexpected. I don’t want to limit myself anymore. I’m so done with that.
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